Showing posts with label Personal Confessions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal Confessions. Show all posts

 

Posted by Book Eater in

I have nothing boldly interesting to say.
I simply wanted to write out my thoughts.
So I begin.

I seriously sometimes think about the other things that I could do, which I could have fun doing, with people I probably would be happy being with, doing something unrelated to trading or with any resemblance with the markets that is both challenging, rewarding and something I can want to wake my mornings up to.

I don't know why I suddenly am feeling this way. While steep losses can surely sway a person's mind in changing careers, I surely feel that this is not the case with me. I love my job. It's something I see myself doing in the next ten years. I'm not kidding. However, of course, there could be some twists and turns, which I want to do, if I can do, at some point in my life. Say, take night classes listening to Wall Street finance professionals, touring around the world learning about companies, managing funds say for teachers welfare through people's donations instead of placing them in time deposits, and giving dividends to the school. Maybe buying a place, learning to cook, trying out a sport, and learning to be more of a girl, whatever that means.

However, learning about the markets is hard enough and time consuming. Taking any other additional stuff to do (say studying something like creative arts/ multimedia designing) would be fun but would entail commitment and responsibility. Plus, it's not like a long term thing. It's just a hobby which will quickly fade away to something I "used to do". Such as taking photography lessons, taking photoshop classes and the like.

I'm concerned as well with the way I have been living my life. I feel like a hermit at times. A hermit is someone who likes living alone right? Ok. I think I have been living like a recluse these couple of days.

Hmm, I dont really know. I have no particular set of friends that I will constantly be around with. It's not that I don't have friends. I just don't develop any close connections so much. It's always just about playing basketball. Not so much caring about other people's lives really. Friday is being spent with people who help me learn what God can teach me. Saturdays and Sundays are erratic but they're usually booked, and I usually do things that I don't particularly like doing but, well still do.

brb. need to eat fast. But I'll continue the train of thought.

-nix

God Values Money More than You  

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I went to church today and I had to write about the sermon our pastor Don Huan told us.
The following things are the best lines that had me reflect.

1.) Are we hoarding God's resources?
2.) Stewardship is the use of God-given resources for the accomplishment of God-given goals. -Ron Blue
3.) Happy is harder than money. Anyone who thinks money will make them happy, doesn't have money. -David Greffen (one of the billionaires who was a co-founder of Dreamworks)
4.) The only investments I ever made which have paid constantly increasing dividends is the money I've given to the Lord- J. L. Kraft
5.) The power of money and wealth to corrupt is so great that the giving away of it is the only way to counter its driving force.
6.) When Rockefeller (the greatest billionaire of his time) was asked "What would satisfy a man?" He replied: "It takes a little bit more than what he has." ---> In short, man will never be satisfied.


The basic gist of the whole sermon is that :
1.) If we think that only we value money, we're wrong. In the Bible, there are 16 out of 38 parables where Jesus talked about stewardship (his intended use for money.)
2.) God values money more and this is clearly seen by the fact that there are twice more passages in the Bible that discusses about stewardship (money management) than faith and prayer.

---> In a nutshell, God is teaching us that money is valuable but He is also practical. We are merely stewards to accomplish His goals. We shouldn't ask what we give but what we keep because God is merely entrusting His resources to us. As the title of Pastor Huan's sermon today suggests, use wealth to gain friends in heaven.


My personal reflection:
I perhaps have a lot of hopes in my life but if there is one thing that God made me understand today, it is that I don't trade for myself but I trade and use my talents and the resources He gave me to further His goal. That is to let people trade their ways to financial freedom and use that freedom to continue to hope and lead us to create a better world. Because money can never satisfy. :)

-Nix

The Art of Self Mastery and Betting on Human Instincts  

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If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat. If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle.- Sun Tzu

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Sun Tzu emphasized the importance of self-mastery in winning wars. Trading is a means of self-development. The reason why trading may be one of the most challenging of all human endeavors is because you begin to know yourself in a way you didn't use to think. You begin to know your deep seated egos, and you begin to know who you really are, your strengths and your weaknesses.

When I think of all the practice hours on the basketball court working on dribbling, rebounding, passing, defending--and when I think of all the practice time in scrimmage getting plays down pat--I realize that game time is just the tip of a large learning iceberg. Trading truly is the only performance domain I know of in which a majority of participants expect to spend less time in practice than in actual live performance. No wonder so many lose money.

If I were a beginning trader and knew what I know now, I'd realize that trading is no less of a business than opening a store or a doctor's office. It requires talents, developed skills, and a clear plan for success. It requires adequate capitalization, and it requires a firm ability to limit overhead during the early, lean years. Fantasies are exciting, but there is so much more to performance success in any discipline.

-Brett Steenbarger

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Why do no trading coaches talk about those personal tragedies and losses? Why don't the stories of the vast majority of traders ever grace the pages of trading magazines and trading books?

I think I know the answer. It's because people don't want to admit that they're wrong. People would rather wait time immemorial rather than to accept their mistakes. But this is essentially what sets apart the great traders from the ones who continually lose their stake. Remember the adage "Cut your losses short, let your profits run." It is so simple in words but is so difficult for people to do.

When I started trading, I told myself that cutting losses would probably be the rule that I can clearly adhere to. Knowing and doing is quite a different thing. When time came to cut those losses, it was a hard thing to do. I'm happy that I have finished cutting them all now but I also realized that I never knew what I was capable of until that time came.

So many traders encounter the same thing. As they say, what is most personal is also most universal. The deep-seated difficulty of cutting losses early on goes against the human nature because we tend to hope when we should be fearing. We tend to fear when we should be relaxing. Greed, hope, fear. These are primordial roots of mankind. This is why technical analysis rooted in human behavior can so easily be used as a trading tool because humans never seem to change. If there's one thing we can bet humans in the future will be doing, they'll be continuing to hope when they shouldn't be. That's why technical analysis is so profitable. Instead of relying on company disclosures, relying on the human market habits have become more superior.


It got me into reflecting not just about trading but about other things. I was in a conversation with an old friend about a theory that good students actually want to be teachers had salaries not been an issue. The reason is because good students have become good students primarily because they've benefited a lot from their teachers, that they want to share that same passion with others who are willing to learn. It's no mystery why teachers can play favorites at times. That's coz they might see themselves in that same eager student. With that positive reinforcement, the good student becomes even better... and so on.

Why did I have to tell in this blog about that theory? Well, it is this.
When you're passionate about something, you want it to grow. You want that something to remain living even when you're dead. You want to find people who share the same passion. You want to teach people. You want to infect others. Remember the saying, loving can never be selfish? Well, i paraphrased that but I think readers get my point.

If we love someone, or something, we are hurt most by it and we are deeply affected by it.
Conversely, we are also passionate about its growth within individuals. My philosophy teacher once told me that love is actually synonymous with growing or something like that.

Great businesses, great trading performances are not done by a lone hand. It's a very difficult process doing everything by yourself.

That's why this blog is a thank you to all the peers that I have who have been an encouragement to me to not back down despite losses. Trading is a process. Trading inevitably will include losses. Life is Life. We cannot be successful overnight. We cannot build Rome in one day. What we can do is we bounce back. We learn our mistakes. We grow what we love.

My special thanks goes to Grapebunch of Absolute Traders and everyone in that community.

Thanks.


- nix













Misunderstandings to be clarified  

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This is just to list down the things I wrote in this blog that could have been misunderstood:


On March 17,2008 article entitled "In the utter annihilation..."
1.) Let me clarify that the contrarian attitude for a day was all verified using technical indicators. It was a very difficult risk/reward trade. It depends on which system you trade. I've learned my errors. I knew that I traded it and the risk/reward was too slim so the next day I sold it all at market open. bought at 2610, sold all shares at 2660 but not all was sold there. Because the market had little takers, 80% was sold at 2660, the rest had to be sold at 2640. There was no good money to be made. I learned not to play with the Philippine Market anymore as there's bound to be more losses trading deadcat bounces than earning decently.

On the blog
2.) I wrote a blog primarily to help myself. It is not in any way for anyone to trade on their own. It's a blog, a rant for myself. I appreciate comments so that I can learn to correct my mistakes.

3.) I learn better through criticisms so I'm thankful for them.

On money management
4.) I've yet to provide myself a decent track record. I am still a newbie. I started trading exactly just last July 11,2007. I only learned Technical Analysis December 2007. I am no one to listen for any trading advice. I am in a continuous learning phase. I appreciate people who have decent CAGR track records to actually help me out, books/blogs that offer their trading wisdom etc.

On a comment
5.) Anonymous: Thanks for pointing out the contrarian article. I rarely get to update my situation kasi. I think it may be partly due to non-updating that may give way to lots of misunderstandings. Sorry about that. And yes, it rarely pays to be a contrarian because it only happens very few times. This is the reason why I also exited the position immediately.
I was also willing to sell lower than my cutloss point if I had to. That to me is trading discipline.

To defend Jesse Livermore, he's not perfect. Yes he made his mistakes. He blew his fortunes out and learned from them. He regained them three times i believe. I dont think Jesse was a contrarian though. The reason why he shorted one day before the October 1929 incident, it was all based on technicals. I also know of someone (let us keep him anonymous) who greatly told his friends to sell USD at 52 pesos. People laughed at him. See the peso now? 41 something? Let's say it goes to 44? Still far from 52 right? Reason? Technical Charts. Rounding top kasi eh. In a way, it seemed as though he was a contrarian but it was all technicals.

I know that the comment was there to help me. You meant good. :)

Hope to get to know you better. You seem to know better so I hope to learn from you. If you could probably just tell me who you are, so I don't have to guess. You know how to find me. Thanks.


-nix

Confessions: Too Full, Learning to Become Empty  

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Reflections from Henri Nouwen:
Mark 10:21

Jesus asked the boy's father, "How long has he been like this?" "From childhood, he answered."

It may come as a shock, but we are often too full of ourselves, too preoccupied with our own activities and too full of our own plans and desires. Even our activities on behalf of others can often reflect much of our own need for fulfillment or recognition. And our relationship with God frequently pivots around our own prayers, needs and projects. We are therefore persons without space and room and consequently lack flexibility and manoeuverability.

We therefore need to be, as it were, pried loose from ourselves. Henri Nouwen, in speaking of prayer as a way to solitude, challenges us to be willing to open our tightly clenched fist and "give up our last coin". So often we receive nothing from our spiritual exercises because we have not created any open spaces in our lives. We are too full. We may want to receive, but we certainly do not want anything to be taken away.

God can hardly fill our hands with the good things of his love and grace while our hands are full with our own things. Therefore in our search for inner peace and strength, we need to learn the gentle but difficult art of relinquishment as much as we need to seek God's empowerment.

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I inserted the above reflection because it's a lesson not just in our approach to God but also in trading.

When we become too preoccupied with our own trading performances, with trading signals, trading techniques, we lose the equation ; we lose the big picture.

Trading the markets is, was and will be just a simple thing. It's just our emotions that get us carried away. We can trade deadcat bounces etc. We are fooling ourselves aren't we? Are we better than the market? The market is ALWAYS RIGHT.

If we keep things simple, just following the guidelines of the three tenets of technical analysis, that would have saved us and made us lots of money.


Keep Things Simple:
1.) Prices discount everything - Just follow the price. It is ALWAYS RIGHT.NEVER WRONG.
2.) Prices move in directions - Trends
3.) History repeats itself. - All based on Human Market Psychology-

If I were to apply this to God, then that would have to be the only 3 commandments of trading.

So anyway, we just have to accept the losses.

I'm just a normal and average trader ok? If the things written in this blog was interpreted differently by people, that I trade using FA...no I don't.

I trade technicals. Fundamentals are just my filters. Its a complementary tool for me.
For technical purists, I am not in conflict with that. Everyone has their own system.

To me personally, TA is superior to FA. FA is a stock screen filter. You cant be able to mine through so many charts everyday. You need some filters. That's FA. Again. this is an opinion and just an opinion.

Since October, there shouldn't have been any trading done in the Philippines. It should have all been in cash.


Trading is a marathon, not a sprint. - O' Neil

Everyone loses money. Great traders learn from them.
It's a journey to knowing yourself better, on how disciplined you really are.


-Nix is now liquid.-
-She has also learned her lesson well.-
-Do your own studies, develop your own trading systems and stick with them-
-Always keep an open mind.-




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